Pre-op Diet Day 2: Holdin Steady!

I know I just posted day 1 like a minute ago but I'm playing catch up! Day one was good. I am super tired though... I'm holding steady at Day 2..

Here's a peeksie at my day ...

Breakfast

 Ooooo look at me switchin things up! 

Strawberry protein shake and grapes

You know it's really weird... When I was getting Mcd's buiscuits and hashbrowns and coke every morning I could down that shit in record time and lick my fingers when I was done. This shake took me 4 HOURS to drink. Not because of taste because it's quite tasty. But because I really wasn't that hungry... I didn't even open my "lunch" shake until almost 2 in the afternoon! No pics of lunch...pretty boring, just a chocolate shake and a cup of chicken broth. 

Dinner

I must say this was delish! I had bought

A yellow squash at the farmers market

in downtown KC on saturday. 

All I can say is mmmmmmmm......

So, Day 2 and I was less hungry today than yesterday. Still having a hard time getting all my water in... but i'm giving it the old college try.  

OH OH! I haven't updated my ticker because I'm only going to do that once a week but I've lost 5.4 lbs since I bought my scale Tuesday night... CRAZY! 

CONFESSION: I made the girls pudding tonight and I may or may not have licked the spoon....  OOPS! 

Pre-op Diet Day 1: Let's do this!

I have officially started my 2 week pre-op diet and I'm pumped!

This post is a day late but last night was kinda rough!

Let me start out by saying that I am FULLY aware that I am lucky. Why?
Because I still get to eat some real food. This isn't a full liquid ONLY diet. I get 2 servings of fruit either mixed with my protein shakes or to the side so that rocks. I also get a grilled meat and a steamed veggie for dinner which rocks my socks clean off!

With that being said, I can still bitch a little right? I mean it is a pretty big diet change and soooo many things are off limits.

Here is what we are working with for day 1:

Breakfast

Again, LUCKY I get a serving of fruit

Took me about 2 1/2 hours to finish my shake...filling I guess

Lunch

I have a feeling this could get old quickly!
I also had a cup of chicken broth but didn't take a picture.
Took me another 2 1/2 hours to drink my shake.
Did anyone else have that problem?

Unfortunately I do not have a photo of dinner. By the time I got home I had a horrific headache and I was starving..only to find out we had to make a Wal-Mart venture BEFORE I could cook my dinner. So I drank a cup of broth before we left for wally world.  I had a grilled chicken breast and fresh green beans from the farmers market. YUMO! I love eating healthy food... Why is it so hard to eat healthy ALL the time? 

I must admit I did NOT drink 64 oz of water... it was more like 50 something... I will get better, I guess it's just hard to drink MORE liquid after drinking liquid...right after you drank liquid. 

So I must say, Day 1 was good! I'm sure this will probably get old pretty quick but I'm taking it one day at a time and today was pretty stupendous! 

Nurses Be Trippin' and last meal food porn!

Last Monday I made all my pre-op appointments... got the time scheduled off through work.
Pre-op testing at surgery center 6/27 at 1pm..sweet
Pre-op appt with surgeon 7/3 at 12:30...awesome

I'm standing outside the office faxing something and get a voice mail from the surgery center.
"Hi Julie, we have you down for 1pm appointment today and it's now 1:45. Please give us a call if you can make it in today"

WTF?!?! I ran back and checked my paperwork...yep...6/27 1pm... NOT 6/25 1pm.

So I call... Very sweetly I say "I have 6/27 at 1pm written on my notepad from the day we talked."
She said "Right, we scheduled it on 6/27 but then had to reschedule because there wasn't going to be a nurse available."
I felt as though I was either right... or completely and utterly crazy.
She said "I'm sorry I thought I called you."
I said "I don't think so, I didn't get any voice mails or anything"
She said "I'm so sorry, can you come in RIGHT NOW?"
"ummm...uhhhh.... Let me check with my boss"
All I can say is THANK GOD my work is so understanding. I know it's inconvenient and puts them in a bad situation sometimes but they really roll with the punches and understand that shit happens.

I rush out the door and on the road...
Then BACK to work because I left my pre-op paperwork on my desk in the rush.
Make it to surgery center in record time.
The lab guy was about to leave so we rush back and do blood and urine.
Then we get to relax and just talk about the surgery. She gave me crap-ton of information and folders and this and that and the other thing.

PHEW! Glad that's over!

Fast forward to today... the surgeons office calls...
"Due to a scheduling conflict we are going to have to reschedule your appointment"
WTF?!?!?! AGAIN?  NURSES BE TRIPPIN!!!

Roll with the punches...
Just keep swimming...

So now my appointment with the surgeon is this Friday. I have to admit I like that better anyways!

Now what I'm sure you all clicked for.... FOOOOOD PPOOOOORNNN!!!
Me and hubs went out for my last meal so to speak.
Where?
Cheesecake Factory....yumo

 Fish n' Chips....*drools*

Good frikken choice if I do say so myself. Their coleslaw is to die for...really. With that scrumptous tartar sauce.. oh em gee It was sooo delish. 

The Hubs also got me a pre-op gift... I'm so frikken excited about it, I can't wait to rip open the box and weight myself! 

 The Fitbit Aria Wi-Fi Smart Scale... It automatically

loads your stats to My Fitness Pal..SCORE!

And finally...starting tomorrow this will be my sustenance for 2 weeks. Whooopie!

 Is it weird I'm excited about it? I know I will be singing 

a different tune pretty quick but it means the 

day is getting closer! 

Tomorrow starts the first day of the rest of my life. The day I take my health in my own hands and make the changes that will save my life and my health. I'm going to kick ass and take names... i'm gonna be snappin' necks and cashin' checks ... I WILL succeed. This will be war... war on fat... war on bad food choices... war on emotional eating...war on low self-esteem. I'm ready to fight for my health and take it back!

But before I put on the war paint and start this battle.....

Let us eat cheesecake...

PRE pre-op diet

So today is the day I start really buckling down...eating on my best behavior...getting my body ready for my pre-op diet so its not such a shock when I start.

I'm actually EXCITED to start my pre-op diet, is that weird? (I know I'll probably be singing a different tune a couple days in!)

I know in my last post I confessed about all the jerkface eating I did. I'm chalking it up as a learning experience. Eventhough it was horrible for me, I'm glad I did it. Not because I'm a glutton for punishment.... But because it showed me what kind of affect our food choices have on us...on me. The 2 1/2 months prior I ate like a frekkin champ! I exercised.... I drank A LOT of water... I drank NO soda...

How did I feel? AWESOME!! I was happy, I had energy, I wasn't tired ALL the time, I was alert... etc.

Switch to Jerkface eating attack. Fastfood/restaurant every meal, Soda every meal, NO water, ice cream, cakes, cookies, candy bars.

How do I feel? AWEFUL!! I've been crabby, depressed, zapped of all energy, tired ALL the time, can't concentrate, don't feel like doing anything besides eating some more bad crap.

WOW, that's a bitch-slap of truth right there. A well deserved/needed bitch-slap! I never want to fall back into those awful eating habits. Knowing the stark contrast, I think I would be clinically insane to go back.

On Saturday me and Cupcake went to Kansas City's River Market, a HUGE farmers market...it totally rocks my world. We were getting produce for our first canning lesson! We bought a flat of strawberries for $6! We also bought 14 ears of corn and a crapton of green beens for freezing. My mom and dad brought my eldest daughter up and surprised us! Afterwards me and Cupcake went  for my "last meal" on Saturday. Hikari, A Japanses Steakhouse...mmmm....

Sorry, food porn I know! I had Filet Mignon and Chicken

So yesterday me and Cupcake had our first canning lesson! We made strawberry preserves...or jam..or whatever it's called. It was a lot of fun! Here are the 'fruits' of our labor haha...



There's the first batch with pectin..      

2nd batch, no pectin just sugar and strawberries. 



So what's for breakfast today?

Much better than a Mcd's biscuit right? :)

Pre-op diet starts in a few days... Then surgery... How EXCITING! 

Eggface Goody Bag Giveaway

I just started following The World According to Eggface and she is doing a Goody Bag Giveaway. It has lots of awesome stuff for a new bandster like i'm soon to become! ;)


Cross your fingers and hope I win! :)

TTT-- Can I have some ketchup please?

A slightly early edition of Ten Things Thursday brought to you by the one and only Laura at Beer, Dogs, and Getting Healthier.

1. When I first started this blog I did so to hold myself accountable. I knew that people would be reading and cheering me on and watching every post and hoping I do great. I told myself I would be honest and tell everything, even when I was embarrassed, ashamed, mad, sad or whatever would make me NOT want to tell all you lovelies. So today's TTT will be all about confessions....

2. I haven't weighed myself since I went to the Egg Dr. a few weeks ago. 

3. Why haven't I weighed? Because as Big Jim over at A Quest to Become Medium Sized so fittingly put it "I've been eating like a JERK" ever since Egg Dr. said to stop the meds and I found out I was approved for my surgery. 

4. Actually I don't think "Eating like a Jerk" even begins to describe my last week and half. I shit you not I have LITERALLY had fast food/restaurant food for EVERY SINGLE meal. Mcd's breakfast, Mcd's or Taco Bell lunch, restaurant for dinner... It's been awful...and each meal is worse than the last.The guys at Mcd's has heard me say "can I have some ketchup please?" so many times now, they have it ready for me and I don't even have to ask...that my friends is sad.  And I've reintroduced coke into my life.. that I'm ashamed of. 

5. If it wasn't apparent before it sure the hell is now... I am an emotional eater. There, I said it. I will OWN it  so I can CHANGE it. With all the craziness going on I have just been eating everything in sight. 

6. I feel like absolute poo. From mid March to late May I ate amazing... I logged everything in MFP. I zumba'd my tush off, I lost 23 lbs! I felt awesome! I slept great, I had energy, I was happy. In just a week and a half I have managed to turn that all around.  I'm tired every second of the day, I want to do nothing besides sit or lay (i'm not picky) and just rest. I call it rest, you may call it sitting on my fat ass being lazy and I would say you would be correct. I have gas...I have tummy pains...i'm irritable. Oh and I think the worst of all is my self pity and excuses. I eat horribly, then feel awful and guilty about it but what do I do? Turn around and eat just as bad if not worse at the next meal!??! WTF is wrong with me? It will take a shrink to figure that one out. It's a cycle folks, a horrible, terrible, no good, very bad cycle that I think many if not ALL of us can relate to at one point or another. 

7.  Decided to face the scale... I've gained 8 lbs. Isn't it crazy how quickly it seems you can put it on, and how EASY it is? But then to take it off is 100 times harder and may take triple the amount of time to lose it. This is where I think we feel defeated. We feel like we've screwed up and there's no use trying if you've fallen so far behind. I'm not going to let this defeat me. I control this...not the other way around. I start my pre-op diet and my new life next week. I'm declaring to myself and all of you that I will go out with a bang. For the last few days before pre-op I will not try and eat everything under the sun because it's my "last chance" Starting Monday I will log everything in MFP and I will start exercising again. My Dr. was so proud of me for the momentum I had with the 23 lb loss. I hate that I'm going backwards. It's time to move forward again. I don't want to go from eating out every meal with coke and ice cream to the next day protein shakes and broth. 

7. As you know The Hubs lost his job last month and unemployment hasn't kicked in yet...but it should be..soon. He has started training in a completely new profession and it has taken him on the road twice in 2 weeks. He was gone wed-sat last week and has been gone since yesterday morning and isn't getting back until the middle of the night tonight. We've NEVER spent this much time apart in the 8 years we've been together. It's really hard, especially with 2 kiddos. I miss him... terribly. I don't have the patience to try and cook dinner with the kiddos after a long ass days work. This is going to take much more preparation on my part. I've never done this before so it's a learning experience. I'll figure it out, I just need time...and practice.

8. I have to finally admit it....my dirty little secret that usually shocks people.... I LOVE rap.. I LOVE R&B... I love my slow jams... People are so surprised when I start my car up and Tech N9ne is blaring.   Or i break out in "Can I get a refill...Can I get a Reee-eeee---ee-ee-fil?"  I like Lil Wayne... I like anything Strange Music. I've got Stevie Stone in my car right now on repeat. Before that was Kali Baby. I just love it. I get lost in it and I escape reality. I've been through alot in my life and Tech N9ne has always been there... he's been the soundtrack of my life basically. When I was depressed, or going through horrible things that no young person should ever go through... I would put on Tech N9ne... It's like he knew what I was going through... He knew my pain because he felt it too. He was never afraid to say the things that others couldn't. I felt like I had a voice through him. He has SOOO many songs that really hit my core. The feeling and the meaning behind his lyrics and his music gives me goosebumps. I can't tell you how many times he has brought me to tears with his music. Although he will never know who I am, I know him. His struggles has helped me through mine and I honestly don't know where I would be today without him. He taught me that life is worth living even when things turn to shit. He's taught me that everyone makes mistakes and things do get better. Ok, sorry I got so deep there...wow.  

9. I ate half a large pepperoni pizza from Casey's tonight. 

10. Tomorrow is a new day... I just need to pop in my Tech N9ne and get going.

Sweet, sweet nectar.... PART 2

~~~~Don't worry, this post isn't quite as raunchy/silly as the original!! ~~~~~

All I have to say is ......Oh...emmm...geeee

(sidenote, this story will tell you just how silly me and the hubs are and how I am sooo not a "normal" girl and into all the super girlie romantical things. Most girls want a trail of rose petals leading to a bubblebath and champaign... well...I'm a little different and the hubs knows me too well!)

This has been quite the rollercoaster of a week with crazy ups and downs and all while the hubs was out of town like 7 hours away!

Sooooo... Saturday I hung out with Cupcake, it was awesome. Great day. It was also the day the hubs was making the long trek back home. I wasn't to expect him back until 8 o'clock or so. Me and cupcake made a whole day/evening of hangin out. Did I mention it was fabulous?

Anywhoozle, I drive home...pulling into the driveway at about 10 so it was dark.

I see something sitting on the concrete walk way ... I was a little puzzled. I thought maybe a dog got into the trash (it was dark ya know!) I got out of the car and what did I see?

(see the other 2 cans?)

If you know me, or have read the original post you would know how frikken awesome this is and how much/long I've been wanting and craving this with it no where to be found. I instantly had a HUGE smile I couldn't hide.

I opened the door and walked inside....



(don't you love my 80's tile?! haha!)

Have I mentioned how much I love this guy?!? Wow... all these cans going through the house leading up to this...

I heard a choir of angels singing and there was a light shining down from the heavens! 

Ok, maybe i'm exaggerating but it was awesome blossom! I almost started crying because it was just so sweet and soooo my style.4 packs....FOUR. I start my pre-op diet in ohh...10 days. Let's do the math here. 4x12=48 cans. 48 cans / 10 days = that puts me drinking 4+ cans per day NOT GONNA HAPPEN! lol

So I took a case to my gma's house, and brought a case to work for all the people I had drooling over it!

 As stated above I don't get excited or get butterflies over the normal girlie things...but this right here? It FELT like rose petals to me.

Surgery date baby!!!!

If haven't read my Ten Things Thursday post from yesterday then you don't know that I found out from my insurance company that i'm APPROVED!!!

Sorry, didn't mean to yell at all of you but i'm so frikken excited I could poop! (sorry Draz!)

Not on ly that but today my big news came with a call from Nurse H... who gave me my coveted surgery date. This girl right here...me..Dandy...JULIE is going to become banded on July 12th 2012. That's the day after my momma's birthday. I can't believe I finally have a DATE! It's so surreal...this has been a long journey just to get to this point. I know the journey hasn't really begun but holy smokes this was hard!

This would put me starting my Pre-op diet on June 28th ...13 days from now. I have a feeling July 12th is going to feel like a lifetime away but I know it will be here before I know it.

I'm glad my pre-op diet isn't a complete liquid diet, that would have sucked major donkey balls!
It sounds a lot like slim-fast...A shake for breakfast, a shake for lunch and a sensible dinner lol

for real though, protein shake for breakfast and lunch. I can add 2 servings fresh or frozen fruit or I can eat the fruit seperately.
Dinner can be a lean cuisine, or smart one...or lean grilled meat and steamed veggies (I think I like option 2!)
I can have any amount of sugar free beverages, broth, sugar free popscicles and jello.
I can 2 cups per day of Gatorade, Juice, skim milk, sherbet, and diet soda.

Not too bad if I do say so myself. I can do this! I just hope I don't gain 20 lbs in the next 13 days! I feel like every meal is my "last" meal!

OH! I just found out that my best friend is going to do the pre-op diet with me... how did I get so lucky to have a best friend like that?!?!?! From this moment forward I will call my bestie Cupcake, because I think I just may love her more than cupcakes ;)

I think this just about sums it up :)

TTT - Happy dance and poop your pants edition!

Time for TTT brought to you by the always lovely Laura Belle!

Today my friends, will be a one of a kind Ten Things Thursday.... at least for me...you'll see ;)

1.I've had a REALLY stressful couple of weeks. The whole egg donation has taken an unexpected turn (nothing to do with me) but I think it will all work out for the best (basically we have to postpone)

2. I know you all know this but waiting for insurance approval SUCKS a big fat you know what!

3. My 4 year olds angry birds part was a success if I do say so myself

4. I sold my first dozen cupcakes to a paying customer!!! She even gave me 5 extra bucks and a card that totally made me cry!

5. Have you ever sat in your car on your lunch break...eating Mcdonalds...crying...like a little baby? That would be me today...

6.Why would one cry in their car on lunch break eating Mcd's (see #2)

7.Were these sad tears? (see #1, and #2) Or were these happy tears?

8.The answer is BOTH, I actually cried twice... although the baby like crying happened second.

9. I called the insurance company and she gave me the same run around I have been given.."Was this for you? When did they send it? What was the name of the Dr.? Can I place you on hold while I look at your account?"  So on hold i'm crying...sad/mad tears because I knew "we don't have anything on record, please have them refax it" was about to come out of her mouth.

10. When miss insurance lady came back she said "It looks like I have an authorization approval here for you, mailed on 6/11/12" Did you catch that? Cuz I almost choked on my french fry...
APPROVED!!!!
I was so excited I almost pooped my pants! I didn't...but almost... I did a happy dance instead :)

Ten Things Thursday-another first! :)

Looks like I'm joining TTT as well this week! (I think I'm starting to get a hang of this blogging thing!)
TTT was started by miss Laura Belle. Feel free to join in! :)

1. Guess what i'm doing right now? Nope... give up? I'm painting GIANT alluminum food cans green. Why you ask would I be doing this? (at work mind you..) For my lovely little 4 year old. Her birthday party will not be princess gowns and pretty pink.. no, no, no not my little girl! What did she want for her b-day? Angry Birds... sweetness. So I am being a super duper cool mom and making a life sized Angry Birds game to play at her party on Saturday. I have a bunch of boxes at home and I'm painting 5 giant cans green with pig faces. I got a couple of playground balls to paint bird faces on and they are gonna smash some pigs!!! I'm kind of excited about this party.. I'm like a little kid. EVERYTHING is Angry Birds, tablecloth, plates, cups, napkins (I will be making cupcakes of course) She will be wearing Angry Birds attire... It's gonna rock!

2. Guess what else I'm doing right now? GOING CRAZY! Waiting for insurance approval is really super duper mega mondo hard! I'm really glad I have this b-day party to stress out about...it takes my mind off of stressing out about waiting for my approval.

3. I'm also waiting for TOM... strange I know, but doing this egg donation everything is all timed out and I am supposed to start any time... just waiting... then the REAL fun starts! (more injections, sonograms... etc!)

4. I think I have "Last Meal" syndrome. I've been eating everything in sight...I've had Mcd's for lunch every day this week...except for today..but I ate there for breakfast...crap! Everytime I go somewhere now i'm like "OMG, this may be the last time I get to eat like this!" and I proceed to stuff my gullet.

5. GGGEEEEEEEZZZEEEEE it takes a long time to make Angry Bird can/pigs!

6.  Did I mention this whole waiting for insurance approval SSUUUUUCCKKKKSSSSS major ass?

7. I have to go ahead and make the cupcakes tonight so I can just frost them tomorrow for the b-day party (my kid better realize the amount of love I have for her to bust my butt to get all this stuff ready!!!)

8. Oh! Speaking of cupcakes I am selling my first dozen to a friend for a shower! Woot woot, go me! :)

9. This medicine is officially making me nutsoid! I feel like a straight up crazy lady!

10.  Did I mention that during this egg donation there is to be no bumping of the uglies? So I'm moody, cranky, a little crazy and NO happy fun sexy times? BOOOOO! HISSSS!!! (Oh well, it's just a couple more weeks, I can do it!)

My first WTF Wednesday!

My very first WTF Wednesday is brought to you by Lupron injections. (shuts off your pituitary gland...joy)

• My commute to and from work is 39 miles... This equates to about an hour drive time... Did I mention this is just ONE WAY?!? I've been driving that for 3 years... How do I do it you ask? I run people off the road...I stop my car, pull people out of their drivers seat and punch them in the face...I drive down the shoulder going 80 when traffic is stopped...I initiate flight mode on my Kia Optima and fly over other cars when I want them out of my effing way! Ok, I have literally done NONE of those things... Instead I think them.. and also scream "WTF are you thinking?!?!?!"  When someone decides to just get over into the side of my car without a turn signal. A friendly honk and a little middle finger action usually does the trick.  There has been signs for 3 miles telling you the right lane is closing ahead, you ride in it until the cones literally force you into the side of my car and you flip ME off because I didn't bow down to your greatness and  let your majesty over in front of me WhoTF  do you think you are? Are you the effing pope? Are you sooo fricken special that the rules of the road do not apply to you and your mercedes? Well, I say tough tittie...you will get behind me and my Kia Mr. impatient self important pants!

• A pivotal moment in my WLS surgery jouney: One night I was out with friends at Houlihans restaurant (or "Club H" as my friends call it)  and we were all getting a little roasty toasty with the drinkskies and whatnots. Drunk friend can barely walk and in a very humurous conversation I inform him of my younger years playing football and advise him upon exit I would carry him if he couldn't walk on his own. Fast forward about 2 hours, closing time, standing outside "the clud".. Drunk friend is even drunker and stumbles... I reiterate the aforementioned offer of carrying him to his car (in 4 inch high heels) ... He doesn't believe me... I know I can do it so I just pick him up, baby style in my arms and he's laughing hysterically.  Enter rude ass stranger... i've never seen this dude, he was not with our party, never talked to him all night.. He walks right by me w/drunk friend in tow and mutters in my ear as he passes "Of course you can pick him up, YOU'RE FAT" and continues walking. WTF was that? WhyTF would you say that to a total stranger? How would my weight affect my abilty to pick someone up? I'm not strong because i'm fat, my fat does not give me super human strength , it's not radioactive. I'm strong because I'm strong...  I was so embarrased I wanted to just run away and never show my face again. Luckily no one else heard it and when I told a couple of them about it they said "what an ass! forget about it, we love you!" Thanks friends, I know you love me and I love you but it's REALLY hard to shake that kind of thing.  This was one of those moments I knew I was making the right decision.

• Insurance companies.... need I  say more? Is there anything more evil and vile on this planet than insurance companies? (health insurance to be exact)  So miss insurance lady at my Dr. faxed over my little pre-auth packet to my insurance company last Thursday (YAY!)  So Monday I call my insurance company just to check and make sure they recieved the fax and it's being processed and everything is hunky dory... I sit on hold.. for like 10  minutes WhyTF does it take 10 minutes to look in my effing file? WTF are you doing, knitting an effing afgahn? "what's the name of your Dr.?" .... Hold... 5 minutes... I'm thinking "this bitch better have some good news" ....FINALLY she comes back "Umm, we don't have anything. Can you have them refax it?"  WTF are you kidding me?!?! I wanted to crawl through the phone and punch her in her stupid face! So I call my lovely miss lady at the Dr.'s office heartbroken... "Miss lady *sniff sniff* they told me they didn't get it *sniff sniff*"     "Oh they always say that!!!"  PHEEEWWW!!! She said they drive patients CRAZY because they always say they didn't get it... and everytime you call they tell you something different.  WTF is so hard about saying "Yes, we got it and it's being processed. We will let you know when a decision has been made" ?!?!? Seems a lot easier than making this already crazy lady even crazier!!!!  So now I wait... patiently... and a little crazy, moody and hot (thanks Lupron!)

Showin' the love

After reading Snarkyanna's post today I had to give a shout out.
You all should go read it..
 pre-bandsters
 new bandsters
 working towards goal or sitting on the bench with LBG...
 ALL of you go read it.
 I love her attitude and now after i'm banded I will think "Just keep swimming"

BYOC--My first one! :)

BYOC - Bring Your Own Crazy!

It’s Bring Your Own Crazy time! Copy and paste the button above to your own BYOC and join us! We answer 5 questions to get to know each other better and to give our blogging brains a break.

1. Are you a daily purse switcher, an often purse buyer or a one purse kind of woman? What factors influence your purse buying?
Definitely not a daily purse switcher.. or even an often purse switcher. I would like to tell you all that I have 15 different purses and I change them to match my outfits and for special occasions....but I can't. In fact, my husband is the one who basically FORCED me to buy my first coach purse a couple of months ago because he caught me drooooling over it on the web sale. He said "Get it." I said "umm.. NO.. I can think of a lot of other things we can spend $270 on instead of a purse and wallet" He walked over and picked up my current purse and dropped it in front of me... "Look at this purse... just how long have you been carrying it?"  I mumbled "a year... at least"  so he reached over me and hit the little submit button. I'm the kind of person that runs my purse into the gound... I carry it till the straps break. It's not that I don't dream, look, drool over purses...I'm a mom.. my extra $ goes to getting my girls things and getting things for the family..not purses. I must say though... 2 weeks after coach purchase #1 I bought another that I liked better. I've been carrying it for about 3 months and now that hubs lost his job I better take good care of it because I probably won't be getting another for a minute.

2. What’s your favorite board game?

Well, it's been quite a while since I played a board game. But if I had to pick I would probably say Clue...just a classic. Love the whole "Mrs. Peacock... in the study... with a candlestick!" What can I say, I'm a sucker for some murder mystery...

3. Are you a sore loser who throws fits or a gracious winner? Are you competitive?

This has been an evolution for me. I'm not gonna lie... When I was little I was the sorest loser in the entire world. If I didn't win I throw the mother of all fits...hell if I was just behind I would throw fits and pout and accuse everyone else of cheating... I was an official "little shit"  I'm just about the complete opposite now. I think it's because I started playing competitive sports. Specifically football, wrestling, and softball. In football we would have a really great year, go undefeated and win the superbowl... then the next year only win like 5 games total. I learned HOW to lose, how to deal with loss, and I knew the high I felt from winning. I guess that also taught me that others want to feel that high as well and I shouldn't win EVERY game, EVERY time. I learned there are people better than me that CAN beat me and that doesn't mean I'm not good or I didn't play good it just means they played better that day. Don't get me wrong, I'm still very competitive... I'm just a MUCH better sport about it. A game/contest/race is always better when people WANT to win, competitiveness is what makes it fun. But that's the key word "FUN" it's just a game... it's not life and death, it's not the damn hunger games.


4. Tell us something you are afraid of that is a physical item…like spiders, deep water, heights, snakes, thunderstorms, first dates, childbirth, etc.

There's not really alot of things I'm afraid of... Spiders...but who isn't really?
Tornadoes, but not so much now that I live in a basement :)

The only thing that i'm afraid of, like REALLY afraid of, like irrationally afraid of is Atomic/Nuclear explosions. I have no idea where this came from but you know the iconic mushroom cloud explosion you see in movies and documentaries...the tell tale sign of a A-bomb? Yeah, I hyperventilate...like instantly. It takes my breathe away and I go into panic mode...my heart starts racing and I can't think... my head starts spinning and I almost pass out. Even if I only see like 2 seconds. It like BURNS into my mind... then I usually have a nightmare or 2. It sucks...bad... and If the hubs knows it's coming he will either cover my eyes for me or say "Dear cover your eyes now!"  I have to tell you I went to the theatre to see The Hills Have Eyes with some friends. If you haven't seen it the ENTIRE opening credits is just explosion after explosion. I was trying sooooo hard to stay calm but I was grabbing the armrests so tight I think I almost broke one... I was hyperventilating but trying to be quiet and somehow I made it through the movie.

5. Repeat question: Summarize your week.


Where do I begin?!?! Hubs lost his job so the kids are trying to adjust to staying home with daddy. They were both MONSTERS last night.

I start my injections tonight for egg donation (yikes!) But I can do this...i've birthed 2 children, it can't be worse than that!

My oldest turns 4 on Saturday and I wasn't prepare for her party (see above about hubs and no job) So we had to move it to next Saturday.

OH and I think the most important of all of course.... I finished my 6 month supervised diet and my packet was submitted to my insurance yesterday Wooty woot woot! *happy dance*