I used to wear that?!?

OK so I finally took some pics of me in my old clothes!!!!




 What?!?! I can't believe these used to fit!!! I mean they were even tight! I just can't believe it. The pants literally fell off of me if I didn't constantly hold them up. The shirt is a 2XL...WHAT?!?!?! WTF? wow... it's funny, sometimes I still feel like that's who I am and what I look like. It's fading...but it's still there.

Here's some more pics!!!



The first pic is the night before surgery so 7/11/12 the middle is from 12/17/12 and the last one is from today 12/28/13. WOWZAS!!! it's amazing, truly, This journey never ends...i'm not exactly where I want to be yet...but DAYUMMMM!!!!!

This picture is from my outfit I wore to my office holiday dinner party last night. I never in my wildest dreams would have ever even thought about wearing anything like this 105 lbs ago!
 
When I look at this picture it feels like i'm looking at someone else. It doesn't seem like me! But it is... and I LOVE IT!!! I am a new person and I hope I never find that old person again! I have so much energy... I can do so much more than I could before and I can wear CUTE ASS CLOTHES!!! This surgery was the best choice I have ever made. It's been a rough road but I have NO REGRETS!!!

TTT - Confessional Style

Oh hi there!

Remember me?

Dandy? Bandy?

YEAH! The one that hasn't blogged in like 2 months..... That's me...

I have decided to pick a Ten Things Thursday to make my triumphant return.

I wasn't gonna.. I was gonna just keep NOT blogging... but a conversation with my gorgeous friend (and lap-band rockstar) Rebecca who by the way has been a huge friend to me in this journey,  convinced me that is the exact opposite of what I need to do.

So without further ado I bring you my Ten Things Thursday Confessional....

1. So... I haven't blogged in over 2 months. Why? Because I did something I said I wouldn't do. I went against why I started this blog in the first place. I have always said that I would share the good the bad and the ugly. My struggles and my accomplishments...but you know what? That's easier to say when there isn't much bad or ugly... when accomplishments outweigh the struggles. My friends I stopped blogging because I was embarrassed. I was mad at myself because I went on a week long sugar ban... and then folded and the opposite happened, i started eating more sugar than ever. Let me just calls em likes I sees em here for a second. I've been a JERK to my lap-band and my goals the last 2 months. How you ask... let's move on to #2.

2. I went 2 months with only drinking about a bottle's worth of water.... TOTAL. Like, no sips of agua...just gave that shit up for some reason.

3. I eat chocolate as meals...whole meals. Like...what's for breakfast today Julie? OH ....6 mini reeses cups, a butterfinger bar and 2 hershey kisses. Fantastic.

4. I ate a whole batch of heath bar cookie dough in 2 days... yep.. 2 effing days. A WHOLE batch I shit you not.

5. I have been drinking regular soda... Like COCA COLA folks! like regular.ass.soda.

6. I haven't been counting calories, protein, making healthy meals, NOTHING. I've been eating a lot of frozen pizza and taco bell. I haven't been using lite sour cream or fat free cream cheese, or wheat noodles. NADA. I've eaten a LOT of chicken tenders and french fries for lunch.

7. I haven't exercised since my last post about Insanity. Nothing... No treadmill...no walks...no kettle bell... ZIP... ZILCH!

8. At this specific point in my life self control has gone out the window. We keep getting lovely gifts like this 10 ton tub of kryptonite.

 

I could seriously barely carry this monstrosity. Oh and there are only 8 people in my office. How in any universe is 8 people gonna finish half a million pieces of chocolate?  And why can't I keep my damn hands off of it? 

9. I'm done... i'm done feeling sorry for myself and i'm sick of this snowball of  "Eat bad...feel guilty...Eat something bad to feel better...Feel guilty for eating something bad...Eat something bad to feel better" IT.HAS.TO.STOP. and it stops now. 

10. You want to know what I have also realized? I got this. I know I have made it sound like I'm eating enough for a football team and it feels like I am... But I'm really not. Yes, I am making terrible choices of what i'm putting in my mouth. But the overall quantity is not nearly as bad as it feels. I haven't had batteries in my scale the past 2 months either so that stress had me DOWN. I was 100% positive I had gained AT LEAST 10 lbs, maybe even 15 or 20.  I finally put batteries in my scale... I took a nice, big, deep ass breathe and stepped on, nervous as all hell and what did it say? 

156 lbs

 I did a double take... That couldn't be right... So I weighed myself again to be sure... After weighing 9 times I finally realized that really was my weight. All that guilt and negative self talk was for NOTHING...literally nothing. I didn't gain a single effing lb. My last weigh in was in September and it was 156.3 lbs. I was absolutely astonished. I couldn't believe it. 

PHEW!!! I know now not to play with fire. To love myself and trust myself and not beat myself up. It's amazing how I have lost 105 lbs and my body looks completely different but my mind is still in fat mode.... mean, negative mode when it wants to be. I'm taking this as a lesson learned and I'm moving forward! Thank god i don't have to undo some crazy ass damage on the scale... i'm lucky as shit on that one! 

Look for me to be posting more... I HAVE to... the accountability and camaraderie keeps me motivated and focused. I'm no longer going to hide my jerk face moments. I'm going to own them so I can move past them!!! 

Here is a throwback thursday pic to see just how far I have come. Here is what 105 lbs gone looks like in my face. 

 

Till next time lovelies. I have lots of pics for you :) and I will do an official weigh in here in the next couple of days to start things back off right!

Ten Things Thursday Oh How I Miss THEE!

It's been a pretty long time since I did a TTT and that my friends, blows....hard. But here we are and here I go! Brought to you by miss Laura Belle. (p.s. She just went back to work after being home with baby D and she's had a rough few days... ya'all should go give her some love at Beer, Dogs, and Getting Healthier)

1.Week one of Insanity DONE! And I feel absolutely phenomenal, for real. It's crazy and I feel like I'm dying but it's amazeballs. Can't wait to see what week 2 will bring :)

 

Before and after last day of Week 1 Oh, and SATAN  Shaun T :)

notice I'm smiling more? 

2. Reached a blog milestone today...

            

3. Got a little bummed tonight... Not gonna lie... I miss the old "family" life sometimes. I mean it would never work and believe me i'm not thinking about going back, but I can't help but miss the whole "family" thing.

4. Quickly shook that off and found happiness in the now :)

5. Speaking of the kiddos, they are going to their grandmas for the weekend for their annual weenie roast and hayride. This is the first weekend in a very long time that I won't have them and I am going to miss them to absolute pieces. So tonight I am going to go down and have a "slumber party" with them at my grandmas house and take them to school on Friday.

6. Although I will miss my kids this weekend I am looking forward to finally having a weekend to relax. And to spend quality time with my love. We have had 3 out of our 4 kids like every weekend and have NEVER had an entire weekend to ourselves. I see a lot of sleeping, cuddling, movie watching, cuddling... and doing a whole lot of NOTHING!

7. I started taking a magnesium supplement. I love it...I haven't had a single leg cramp since I started taking it and I have been poopin' like a champ! It helps me sleep better at night and just helps me relax. I highly recommend you read about it and consider starting it! It tasted yummy too!

 

8. I think I got myself into a mess here... I kinda sorta agreed to start a sugar detox with miss Laura Belle. And I keep my word. It all started with her post yesterday which you can read Here. She basically FORCED me to give up sugar with her starting Monday. (Ok, ok, I may be exaggerating a bit here...she kinda just invited people to join her and I, on my own accord decided to jump in lol) It's not like I eat a TON of sugar to begin with, but with all this effort i'm putting in every where else, why not? 

9. *unwraps mini peanut butter cup and shoves it hurriedly into mouth...looks around*   What? We said we were starting Monday...SHEESH! *slowly reaches back into bag and grabs another peanut butter cup*

Don't judge me!

10. Please if you have a blog, post it in my comments, even if we are old friends...still post it, promote that shit! A lot of bloggers I started out with aren't blogging anymore and my blog feed is looking PUHRETTY slim these days.  I have quite a few pageviews but not many comments or followers, which means I got a lot of creepers! Please comment, it makes my day :) also please share your blog link so I can make sure I'm following you. 

Love you all my little cupcakes! I will probably have to do my weigh in Saturday since I won't have my Scale tomorrow. Can't wait! I know I'm up from my last weigh in but I'm down since starting Insanity! :)

That Sh*t is Buh-nanas, YO!

I have officially lost my mind.

Yep. I have gone completely Insane...... FOR INSANITY THAT IS!

*slaps knee*

See what I did there?

Ok, but seriously? Shaun T (creator and Instructor) puts it best in this evenings video: Shoot me in the fucking face  Pure Cardio when he said  "That SHIT is BUHnanas yo!"

I've craving exercise lately, I just couldn't get into a grove and get motivated. My eating has also been pretty craptastic lately which I think contributed to the lack of motivation. So the intern at work came up to me and we started talking about exercising. I can't even tell you now how we got on the topic but he asked if I had heard of Insanity. I said..."ummm...yeah...but I heard you had to be bat shit crazy to do it" He told me he had it and would give it to me.

Saweet. At first I say that sarcastically... because during a phase of motivation depletion I should totally make a fake 60 day commitment to a soul crushing workout. Yeah...that's gonna work *rolls eyes*

He was super excited about it and really adamant I start it. So I "promised" him (fingers crossed behind my back) that I would start it.

So i download the files on my laptop...print out the schedule and all that jazz. The first day is the "Fit Test" Just a few moves you do and see how many of each you can do. You do this fit test every other week through the program.

Cool beans... I can do this. It won't be that bad.

30 minutes later.....

  

EEEFFFFF MEEEEE!!!!!!! Are you effing kidding me here?!?! What kind of madness is this shit? Who in their right minds would subject themselves to this? 

Well... Apparantly me... I do... and while it was hard and I felt like I was going to collapse afterwards... and puked... and couldn't walk.. I have to tell you a secret but shhhhhhhhhh don't tell anyone. 

Get closer...

Closer...

CLOSER...

*looks around...leans into your ear* 

I LOVED IT!!!

I loved the soreness... I LOVED feeling my muscles for the first time in a long time.. I LOVED feeling the results of my hard work. I couldn't even sit down on the frikken toilet to take me a pee without crying out in pain....

BUT I LOVED IT!

Something happened... A fire was awakened within me... 

I crave my workouts...

I think about it all day at work...

Every move I make I feel my muscles...

And it's Uh-may-zing. 

But boooooyyyyyyyy I really hadn't even seen nothing yet. Day 2 was actually what I would consider the real first day because it's the actual workout. And let me tell you... Just the warm up for the video is a full workout. You are dripping sweat and feel like quitting just after the warm up.

HOLY BUHJEEZIS!!! 

 My legs literally kept giving out on me... I had to grunt and moan and cry out just to make it through. 

But guess what? 

I.DID.IT.

I fucking did it. 

I didn't quit... I finished the video. 

I felt like I was going to die... But I did it. I felt so much pride. But it wasn't until I started reading message boards when I found out a LOT of people didn't even make it through the video... only made it half way through. I totally pulled one of these sitting in my recliner...

 

I'm so excited about this and so ready to push myself and see just how hard I can push and see just much of a transformation I can make. It has reignited the fire within me to start getting my eating back in order. I feel so much motivation right now it's almost scary! I really feel unstoppable and I hope this momentum just keeps building as it has. 

Tonight I completed day 5 and although it was the hardest so far I feel soooo good afterwards! It was so crazy that the people in the video looked like they were dying.. even Shaun T got so tired he couldn't talk.

 

 He is so awesome... but EFF HIM! He pushes you so hard and you feel like he's there with you telling you to dig deeper. 

EFF YOU SHAUN T!

 

 Tonight was by far the sweatiest workout yet...also the one that I felt I pushed the hardest. This is my Pure Cardio face... lol After my workout I made me a little dinner.

1/2 cup fat free cottage cheese

1/4 cup lloyds shredded pork

1/4 cup lloyds shredded chicken

10 cheddar rice cakes

338 calories and 25 grams Protein. Not too bad! Oh and before you say EWWWW GROSS, you should try it... it's delicious. :)

Get comfy...you might be here a while! (long overdue update!)

I'm gonna be completely honest here.... I have been "gone" so long I don't really have ANY FRIKKEN CLUE WHERE TO START! This may be really fragmented and strange, it might get a little weird...but if you stick around it just might be worth it! (I promise this is a pic filled post....I know that's all you guys come here for!! J/K!) I'm thinking bullets might work best for an update post...yeah bullets!

• 1st and foremost I think the most exciting news is that I am no longer living in my boyfriends mom's sunroom! Woot woot! *happy dance* My love and I officially have our own apartment!!! We moved in the last week in July. I LOVE IT!!! It's been hard, we had nothing... his momma was AMAZING and furnished just about our entire apartment from garage sales. I can not thank her enough, she is an amazing woman who has accepted me and my children into her family, into her HOME with open arms and an open heart and has made me feel so loved and accepted. She is one of a kind and I am so lucky to have her in my life. 
• Speaking of my love. When you find the right person you really know. I am so in love it's scary! lol  He makes me want to be a better person, push myself harder than I ever thought possible. He makes me feel beautiful, and wanted. I will spare my family the details so I will just say A++++ with a big puffy star sticker in the bedroom...  ;)  he is so supportive of my journey, he believes in me and encourages me everyday..especially on the days when I have a hard time encouraging myself.
• The ball is finally rolling on my divorce. Things are SO much better with me and my ex. He has a girlfriend now and i'm super happy for him, I wish nothing but happiness for him. I'm lucky that I never have to worry about my daughters not having a father. My situation is still very hard and it makes more sense for them to go to school and stay with him on the weeknights and I have them every weekend. I know some people think it's weird but it works for us right now. I miss my kids...i was supermom for almost 5 years...did everything and now it's so different. I went from not even being able to pee by myself to being by myself every night (my love works until 9pm) Not gonna lie...it's lonely. But i'm finding my own happiness and making the most of the time I get with them. 
• Soooo, because of above bullet and the fact I have defaulted on all my credit card bills...BLEH. I am looking for a 2nd job at nights. I want to give myself something to do and keep my mind off of being lonely and missing my kiddos while making some extra money to pay off my debt. Let me tell you, it's harder than it sounds to get a 2nd job... been trying for like 2 months now. Just keep swimming! :) 
• My weight loss has hit a plateau... I mean it could possibly be all the peanut butter cups, potato chips and ice cream... COULD be... lol But what I have learned is that i'm getting pretty dang good at maintenance...it's just...well...i'm NOT at maintenance yet... still have a few elbees to go! I have a longer post coming about that soon.
• OK, I think that's probably enough for now so let's start off the pic parade with kiddo pics, Shall we? 
 

Her first day of Kindergarten! :)

My baby girls Kindergarten school picture...can't believe it! 

 

My babies eating their first breakfast at mommy's new apartment! :)

My little hipster....lol

 

One day I will probably have to break out this pic to prove

to them that they loved each other at one point! lol

This little monkey and her Minion cracks me up! She really knows 

how to lay on the cute!

Ok, Now on to yours truly! Time to show you a pictoral timeline of my life over the summer!!

 

No makeup, the day I hit the 100lb mark! :)

Such a change in my face!

OK folks... the next picture is a real heartbreaker for me...

See, I went shopping and tried on this dress and frugal me decided not to buy 

it when I found out it wasn't on clearance. Regular price was only $36..not like it was expensive, but I 

passed on it anyway and KICK myself for it... what a dummy!

 

I effing LOOOOVVEEEDD it!!!

(p.s. look at those collar bones!)

My birthday outfit! I had the day off and I spent with my momma! :)

The steal of a deal shirt I bought on my b-day! :) 

Ok.... The last picture is going to be tough... I have NEVER taken a swimsuit selfie...

Like EVER. If you have seen a pic of me in my swimsuit it's because it was taken without 

my permission and I haven't killed the photographer yet lol 

BUTTTTT... I decided it was time to face my fears and let you all see me in my swimwear. 

Soooo.....

I guess here goes nothing!

There it is folks! That's my life in a nutshell! I could have actually made this much longer but I wanted you to ACTUALLY read it! HAHA 

Don't worry, I will start blogging more now...pinkie promise! In fact I have 2 drafts almost ready to go! Some news about my new exercise plan  is coming soon! :) So stay tuned!

 

 

 

Things that make you go "hmmmm"

I am perplexed...dumbfounded...bewildered... *runs to google for more synonyms* ummm....puzzled...bamboozled...discombobulated...uhh...flummoxed? (wtf google? flummoxed?)

Anyways, I think you get the picture.

Soooo......for YEARS I have been 5ft 4in tall. At least... I thought so...
Today at work we started talking about how tall we were and no one thought anyone was right lol so we pulled out the ole measuring tape to put our measuring skills to the test.
Well son of a shit if I wasn't 5 foot and 5 flipping inches tall!

When I went in for Lap-Band surgery I was measured at 5 foot 4 inches.

Soooo....Did I suddenly grow an inch taller in my old age? I thought you are supposed to shrink as you get older?!? I mean I'm only 28 but I'm pretty sure I stopped growing at like 16. So WTFF? (yes, you read that right, 2 F's...What the fucking fuck?!?! lol)

I mean don't get me wrong here... I like 5'5" much better than 5'4"... that inch is like... awesome sauce. I mean look at what it does for my BMI!

At 5'5" my BMI is 25.8 (holy smokes for real? i'm .8 away from not being overweight anymore? wowzas!)
At 5'4" my BMI is 26.6

I'll take 25.8!! haha! well I'd take 26.6 too seeing as I started this journey at 40+ (<-----umm ...was="" p="" real="" that="">
So I like this growing thing... I should do it more often... lower that BMI even more!

JUST KIDDING! I will just keep going to the gym and doing my best to follow my band rules... that's how I will lower my BMI ;)

Flash Back Friday Weigh IN!

Starting weight: 261 lbs
Surgery day: 234.4 lbs

Last weigh in: 161 lbs
Todays weight: 156.3 lbs

-4.7 lb loss

-78.1 lb loss since surgery
-104.7 lb loss overall

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It's FLASHBACK FRIDAY YA'LL!!! (Thanks LBG for the idea!) 

Here is a pic of me probably at a little over 260 lbs.... and then me a few weeks ago at approximately 156lbs. What  a difference! I seriously have a hard time remembering the girl on the left, and I'm still getting used to the girl on the right! I will NEVER be the girl on the left again...EVER. Thank you Lap-Band... and Thank you to me...for all the hard work I have put in to get here...I kinda rock! :)

A Realization has become my MOTIVATION!

Why hello there! Remember me? The Dandy Bandy? Yep, still here... still kicking!

Life is finally calming down...routines are being created...good things, good things! Hopefully that means I will be able to start posting more! I really am going to make an effort to blog more, it has helped me soooooooo much and I think it's time to get back to it!

I'm working on a nice long post updating you all on life over here in Dandyland. A lot has happened that I must share with my little cupcakes. But not today... I want it to be good...not rushed!

But I HAD to share this.....

I had a realization tonight while working out (finally!) at the fitness center at my apartment. (that's right, I said my apartment...told ya a lot has happened!) It's nice to have a fitness center open 24 hours because it means I really have no excuses to get my ass in gear. When I first saw it I was excited because there were these big floor to ceiling mirrors so you could watch your form and what not. What I realized tonight whilst watching myself workout in said mirrors.....

I have a ways to go. Seriously.

Now please don't think me ungrateful... Believe me I am so floored at how far I have come. I have lost over 100 lbs...WOW. really...WOWZAS! But I think I started getting super comfortable with the fact I had lost so much and started losing sight of the fact that I'm not where I really want to be. I've been riding the high for a while and kind of stalled out. Wearing such smaller sizes and being amazed every time I try on clothes I think kind of gave me a distorted image of where I'm really at. I think that I thought I was farther along than I really was... that I looked different than I really do. Looking in those mirrors tonight I realized that it's not time to slow down and bask...NOW is actually time to turn up the heat and work harder than I ever have to reach my goal. I'm NOT where I want to be, I should NOT be getting comfortable.

That realization has become my new motivation. I'm ready to push myself and reach my goals and go farther than I ever thought I would. Once again, I'm proud as SHIT of myself and still sometimes can't believe I have come this far.... but I'm ready to go farther.

Bring it on.... LET'S.DO.THIS.

Pre workout....grrrrrrrrrrr

 

Post workout.... grumpy after my foot cramped up on the treadmill

Thought the em-effer was gonna curl up and die right there, 

just fall the eff right off...but I pushed through, didn't stop!

Bandiversary Time Baby!!!

Has it really been a whole stinking year since I had the Lap-Band surgery?!?! I know, I know I'm a week late...but hey...I'm DOIN IT!!!

All I can say about this past year is....

WOWZAS!!!!!

My life has COMPLETELY changed in the past year. There is so much I want to talk about but it's midnight and I know ya'll just came for the updates!! It's ok I forgive you, I'm guilty of it too :) So let's go ahead and get to it! 

We will start with measurements. The first was taken the night before surgery. The 2nd was 1 year later. ummmm..... REALLY?!?!? I'm still in disbelief of these numbers here folks. I NEVER thought this could be me! 

                 7/11/12      7/12/13         Loss

Neck.............15"............13.5"........1.5"

R bicep..........17.5 .........14"...........3.5"

L bicep..........17"...........13.5" ........3.5"

R forearm.......12.5"........10.5"........2"

L forearm.......12"...........10"...........2"

Wrist...............7.5".........6.75"........0.75"

Bust................50"...........41"..........9"

W...................46.5"........36.5"........10"

Hips................53"...........40"..........13"

R thigh............24.5"........20"...........4.5"

L thigh............24.25".......19.5"........4.75"

                             TOTAL LOSS----54.5"

54.5" GONE FOREVER

Wow WOW wow... It's funny when I was big, I never realized I was THAT big.... 

Now for the big EL-BEES... How much exactly have I lost? Well, it's an amount that I NEVER thought was EVER possible for me to lose... and here I am...

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Starting weight: 261 lbs
Surgery day: 234.4 lbs

Last weigh in: 164.2 lbs
Todays weight: 161 lbs

-3.2 lb loss

-73.4 lb loss since surgery
-100 lb loss overall

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Are you effing me? Seriously... are you all effing me? I know there are a lot of people out there stalking my blog... thinking about getting the Lap-Band....seeing LBG and her success and all these other ladies... and now me too... and thinking "I could never do that... I don't feel like I could lose 100 lbs...it's just too much." Let me tell you, I thought the SAME EXACT THING. I really never thought I could ever lose 100 lbs. I thought it was just too much...Impossible...can't happen. WEEEELLLLLLLLL.... Here is proof that it can and it WILL happen if you work hard!!! 

OK, ok... enough numbers, I know you guys really came for pictures...don't lie!!! Well, the proof is in the puddin folks. I still can't believe my eyes.... 

Was that girl on the left really me? 

Is the girl on the right really me? 

I have no words... I really.have.no.words. I could go on and on and on and on... But I won't. 1 Year down... many many many more to go. I can't wait to see where this journey takes me from here and I'm so glad I have such a wonderful group of people both near and far supporting me and following me every step of the way. I love you all... my friends and family here that keep up and also the UH-MAY-ZING sisters I have found in blogland. My bandie besties I call em'... you know who you are!!!! 

 Thank you all for making this HUGE year in my life absolutely unmatchable. 

Whaddya say to a Weigh In?

Starting weight: 261 lbs
Surgery day: 234.4 lbs

Last weigh in: 171.9 lbs
Todays weight: 164.2 lbs

-7.7 lb loss

-70.2 lb loss since surgery
-96.8 lb loss overall


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Holy cow, holy smokes, holy cannoli... and anything else that could possibly be holy.... I'm so excited I could poop! 96.8 FREAKING ELBEES GONE!!! 

I was going to post more but i'm kind of in shock.... Soooo.... I guess we end it with cute kid pics? You know, the yooozh. 

 

 

 

 

My baby is 5 whole years old!!

 

 

My little Pre-k Grad!! :)

Holy Bejesus!! Where has the time gone?! (BIG REVEAL!)

 Hello?

Is anyone still out there?

Do you think I've fallen off the face of the earth?

Are you wondering if I've gained a bunch of weight back and just can't bring myself to blog?

NOOOOOOPPPPPEEEEEE!!!!

I'm here....I'm kicking... some ASS that is!!!

I'm less than a month away from my big ole Bandiversary and I am ohhhh so close to my goal weight!!! Just how close? Well you will find out tomorrow when I weigh in!!! lol

Now I know you only clicked on this for the BIG REVEAL. I really hope you look at the whole blog post cuz it will be worth it...promise! I have a big reveal at the endski! :)

Now just keep going... LOTS of pictures to keep you good and entertained K? Thx!

Ok sooo... first of all, I think i'm ready to show you guys me and my new squeeze. You know the extremely supportive, extremely sexay (if I do say so myself!) extremely loving and caring new dude? Yeah, him. I kinda like him.... A LOT!

 

Aweeeeeee.....aren't we just tooo cute? 

I have to say, eventhough we feel like teenagers because we are both starting over with nothing....and it's a struggle (still living in his mom's sunroom the "Couch Palace" as we call it) we are so stinking happy. Our communication is so open, we aren't afraid to say how we feel and its awesome. We are certainly building an extremely strong foundation for a great relationship and life. 

Ok on to other stuffs! Like... ME and losing weight and stuffs. lol 

Here are some pics I took a bit ago, just a little photo shoot for ya!

 

DANGG lets zoom in on that face! lol

I usually don't like pics of myself but that's one good selfie!! lol

 

No stripes? Fooey! I'll rock em thank you vrrrry much! :)

OK, here's a pretty big reveal...but not THE big reveal. Remember how I said my love forced me to buy shorts? Well, here they are my little cupcakes!

Say WHAAAAT?!?! Big step guys...BIG step. Now? I love shorts 

OKies, next we start leading up to the big reveal!! My momma got me and my dad and brother UHMAYZING seats for the Royals game last week. 5 rows behind the dugout...awesome. Kenz had an absolute freaking blast!!!

 Anyone notice yet? *hint* does the shirt look familiar? muhuhahahahaha!!!

Ok, before the big reveal let's tease you just a little more.... how about a nice shot of my new jawline?!?!

OOOOOOOH LALALALALA!!! Look at that jawline? I didn't know i had one of those! Whodathunk?

OK ok, I will stop teasing time to show you the big reveal! (now i'm afraid i've talked it up to much and you are going to be disappointed...just "oooo" and "awwww" and humor k? thx!)

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OK FINE HERE IT IS!!!!

Can you frikken believe it?!!?! The left for those of you who don't know is the night before surgery weighing in at about 234 lbs. This was my goal shirt and I literally almost broke it putting it on for this pic...merrr. The right is last week....about 166 lbs. which is 95lbs down from my original weight of 261. This folks is unbelievable to me. When I started this i thought there was NOOOOO way i would ever fit into this teeny tiny little shirt. WELLLLL... I CAN DAMNIT! And I look good! I have changed my body this much without a regular exercise routine (who am I kidding, basically no exercise) I can't WAIT to see my body transform adding exercise. Which I just started. lol Kettlebell workouts (talk about ass kickin!) and walking a 4.5 mile route with my love. 

Well, there you have it. I hope it was worth the wait and I hope you looked at the whole post!

I will be back soon with a weigh in and some adorable pics of the kiddos! :)

Why Herrow there! Saturday weigh in anyone?

Starting weight: 261 lbs
Surgery day: 234.4 lbs

Last weigh in: 175 lbs
Todays weight: 171.9 lbs

-3.1 lb loss

-62.5 lb loss since surgery
-89.1 lb loss overall


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OH geeeeeeze I'm soooooo close to 90 lb loss!!!! 

I really just can't believe it... Sometimes I don't even recognize my reflection... I have to stop and do a double take... and sometime I strut a little and think "DWAM I'm looking GGOOOOODDD!" 

Life is still crazy... settling down though which is awesome. Things are getting much more civil and friendly in my divorce which is super duper. If you are friends with me on facebook you noticed that my relationship status has changed... YUP it's FB official! I have met a wonderful person who makes me feel uh-may-zing, really. He makes me feel like a million bucks and then some. He tells me i'm beautiful/sexy/pretty every.single.day. He is amazingly supportive of my weight loss journey and encourages me DAILY. Of course it's like we are 17 again, starting all over. We both have nothing because we both just got out of relationships. We don't have our own place yet, working on that lol. But the most important thing is i'm HAPPY. Really really happy. 

I'm hoping to get down to my goal weight by my birthday August 14th. So that's like 21.9 lbs to lose by August, I think I can do it!!! I've also decided to change my goal weight, my boyfriend challenged me to take it down 10 more lbs to 140lbs, He's like "it's only 10 more lbs, you can totally do it!" I'm pretty sure I can do it too lol But i'm officially keeping my goal weight at 150 because that's what it's always been... hell I never even thought I could get down to 171!!  I'm hoping to start really amping up and exercising like a fiend now that it's FINALLY getting warmer!!!

I forgot to tell you guys, a couple months ago I totaled my car when Bambi's mom strolled out in front of me... yeah it sucked, bf's airbag went off , i had a seatbelt burn... no bueno... BUT I gots me some new wheels now!

 

Ain't she purdy? 

OH! Big news! I finally bought my first pair of jean shorts!!! And even better? They are size effing 10!!!! yes, a TEN!!! I couldn't believe it..... Oh and i finally bought a new pair of jeans.... also a size 10!!!! I really never thought I would ever wear a size 10, it feels amazing, I can't wait until i'm crying over wearing like a size 8!! (which still seems impossible in my brain lol)   

 

Well, I'm off. I got my camera now so I am hoping to take some progress pics pretty soon! :)  So now I leave you with some pics!!

 

 Size MEDIUM shirt folks...yep

Me and my mom's new weiner Sammie Jo Pickles!! She is toooo cute!

I know I know, I wear this sweatshirt a lot, but how could I not? I'm kind of a boss!! 

My momma bought me a hat! lol

 

Possibly the cutest picture ever. Kenz was letting my moms older weiner outside to go potty 

and I hear her BANGING on the door and when I open it she has this thing in her 

hands and she screams "I FOUND A MOUSE!!!" I said no kenz that's a bitty baby bunny!

She said "Patches had it in her mouth shaking it!! Then she threw it!! I saved it's LIFE!! Patches 

DID NOT save it's life!!!" Unfortunately this tiny little critter didn't make it but it's siblings did. 

Sad, but I got this ridiculously cute picture out of it..soo...there's that...