Wednesday, January 22, 2014

Big Changes Folks...

If you follow me on facebook ( Then you have seen me eluding to some big changes. I waited to tell you all what the changes were because I wanted to let it all out and show you my slide backwards which I did yesterday, you can read my big EFF YOU'S here.
So now all that is out of my system and off of my shoulders I can tell you about my plan on fixing the problems that developed.

It may not seem big to some.... but it sure is big to me, growing up on southern cooking and comfort foods but the biggest changing I am making in my life...
I think it's important I revise that....I need to give props to my amazingly supportive boyfriend....the biggest change WE are making in OUR LIVES is that we not eating meat... none...
I have grown up like most as a heavy meat eater. If there wasn't meat in my meal it wasn't a was a snack lol I've never eaten tofu... i've never eaten "fake" meat as I call it... You know...looks like chicken...smells like chicken...but it ain't chicken... I think it's soy...

Now I want to make a disclaimer right now so I don't get messages and comments from people about how i'm not doing it right.... we are NOT becoming vegetarians well we are...but not putting a label on it.. we are NOT going vegan... We are simply not eating meat anymore. I'm no longer building every meal around animal protein. We are not cutting out seafood because...well...I love that shit. And there's a lot of health benefits. I'm still eating cheese when I want... I will still make me an egg white omlete every now and then. I'm trying to adapt my tastes to soy milk... it's hard because i've never had it and only had cow's milk. But i'm trying so that's good right? I'm giving the old college try!

Willy Wonka on Vegetarians #meme

I'm ready to learn new things in the culinary world... learn that my plate doesn't HAVE to have meat on it to fill me up and taste good. I'm kind of sick of eating the same things my whole life. Let's see here let's review my menu from oh...about the past 10 years shall we?

1.Spegetti and MEAT sauce
2. BEEF/CHICKEN enchiladas
3. BEEF Sloppy joes
4. CHICKEN tetrazzini
5. CHICKEN stir fry
7. ROAST and potatoes and carrots
8. Chilli (with lots-o BURGER)
9.Homemade CHICKEN and noodles
10. Grilled CHICKEN and vegies

I could go on but you get the picture... meat meat meat meat... gimme some meat...all day all night.

We have been doing a lot of research and the effects of meat on your body...especially red meat.
Getting the lap-band just makes my diet consist even more of meat...sometimes my meal is literally only a piece of meat since I gotta gets my proteins in. I'm learning that there are other non-meat sources of protein and I am willing to give it a try. 

We stocked up on Amy's burritos and meals and Morning star "meats" I also cooked with Quinoa for the first time and I FRIKKEN LOVE IT!! I made southwest quinoa stuffed peppers and they were amazing.

I can't wait to start making some really awesome protein packed meals and posting the recipes!!

Wish me luck!! :)

And here's the way I look at it... I'm doing ya'll a favor!!

Dear Vegetarians -

Thursday, January 16, 2014

Eff this Effing Sh*t!!!!!!



I'm done.... I'm effffffffing done!!!

But it's not what it seems.... I promise this is a good thing. I haven't been doing very good lately and I'm making big changes.... So I just want to dish out some EFF YOU's to clear my mind of negativity so I can fill with butterflies and rainbows and shit. 

EFFFFFF YOU BRAIN! brain you are supposed to be smart.. and adapt... I've lost 100 lbs, WHY YOU NO REALIZE THAT?!?! Why do you insist on bringing me back to old habits from 100lbs ago? Yeah I had some chocolate...big whoop.. well apparently, to my brain it is a big whoop. Let me just narrate a little crazy conversation that goes on in my head....


Me - Eats a piece of chocolate
Brain - "Mmmmmm....that's good really shouldn't eat that, you kind of went over your calories for breakfast....soo... you kinda ruined breakfast...sooo... FUCK IT!! EAT ALL THE CHOCOLATES YOUR DAY IS IN THE SHITTER ANYWAY!!! 
Me -Eats like 10 more pieces of chocolate
Brain -"Well, might as well have a piece of cake now fatty... and how about a coke... yeah a coke sounds real nice...days already ruined why not just stuff your face until you feel sick. Great job staying on track fatty patty... Maybe we'll start over again tomorrow... or maybe we'll have peanut butter cups for breakfast... because you suck and can't say no. Super fantastic job sucking at life."
Me - steps on scale...1 lb gain
Brain - "REALLY?!?!?! You gotta be kidding me?!? How did this happen? geeze, you should really get a cappuccino at QT... oh and eat some candy... and drink some coke... That will make you feel better. 
Me - Does all of the above
Brain -  Holy f*ck what have I done... might as well just eat some more.. you're already f*cked. 

Umm...yeah...that's real there...I have come a long damn way but I still struggle with negative self talk and snowballs of guilt eating.  So speaking of chocolate...


You are so creamy and delicious and hard to pass up. Stop being good k? You suck... big ole donkey balls....


Or "liquid satan" as I like to call it...Why are you so bubbly and yummy and addicting? You too suck my friend...actually you and I are no longer friends. I am un-friending you and blocking you effective immediately. 

So now that i've let that all out there are few apologies i need to make... to some old friends that I have left to gather dust. 


I have all but abandoned  you... you are so wonderful and an integral part of living and being healthy. And I haven't seen you in a hot damn minute. I promise I will start drinking you more fact...every day all day... we are gonna be buds, you and me...


I haven't seen you in a while my friend... you probably thought I forgot about you... Don't worry..momma's home... I will be devouring you by the truckful. 


Shaun T would have kicked my ass if he knew what I have been doing...which is NOTHING. If you count walking down the stairs to my car exercise then i've mastered that. I promise you will start seeing more of me... starting today... we already had a pretty rough reunion tonight... I ended up on the floor in tears... kind of out of happiness, but mostly because I felt like puking everywhere. 

I stepped on the scale this morning and it said 162 
And that's how I came up with this title... because those are the exact words that flew out of my mouth at 6:30 this morning... sure did wake me up though...