Life is finally calming down...routines are being created...good things, good things! Hopefully that means I will be able to start posting more! I really am going to make an effort to blog more, it has helped me soooooooo much and I think it's time to get back to it!
I'm working on a nice long post updating you all on life over here in Dandyland. A lot has happened that I must share with my little cupcakes. But not today... I want it to be good...not rushed!
But I HAD to share this.....
I had a realization tonight while working out (finally!) at the fitness center at my apartment. (that's right, I said my apartment...told ya a lot has happened!) It's nice to have a fitness center open 24 hours because it means I really have no excuses to get my ass in gear. When I first saw it I was excited because there were these big floor to ceiling mirrors so you could watch your form and what not. What I realized tonight whilst watching myself workout in said mirrors.....
I have a ways to go. Seriously.
Now please don't think me ungrateful... Believe me I am so floored at how far I have come. I have lost over 100 lbs...WOW. really...WOWZAS! But I think I started getting super comfortable with the fact I had lost so much and started losing sight of the fact that I'm not where I really want to be. I've been riding the high for a while and kind of stalled out. Wearing such smaller sizes and being amazed every time I try on clothes I think kind of gave me a distorted image of where I'm really at. I think that I thought I was farther along than I really was... that I looked different than I really do. Looking in those mirrors tonight I realized that it's not time to slow down and bask...NOW is actually time to turn up the heat and work harder than I ever have to reach my goal. I'm NOT where I want to be, I should NOT be getting comfortable.
That realization has become my new motivation. I'm ready to push myself and reach my goals and go farther than I ever thought I would. Once again, I'm proud as SHIT of myself and still sometimes can't believe I have come this far.... but I'm ready to go farther.
Bring it on.... LET'S.DO.THIS.
Post workout.... grumpy after my foot cramped up on the treadmill
Thought the em-effer was gonna curl up and die right there,
just fall the eff right off...but I pushed through, didn't stop!