5 down 1 to go!!!!

So today was appointment 5 of 6 for my 6 month supervised diet.
I did good...
No I did great...
No I did AWESOME!

The nurse at my surgeons office where I have my appointments was sooooo excited with how i've done over the past month. I lost 9 lbs... WOW 9 lbs! She thought she was looking at the wrong chart :)  She was so excited about the changes I have made to prepare myself for the band.

Thank you, all of you. All you banded bloggers here in bloggerland have given me so much inspiration, hope, and advice I could never thank you enough. I told her about you guys and how reading your stories (yes, I have  read the ENTIRE blog of everyone I follow!) has really prepared me for the lifestyle change that is coming.

I explained to her how 6 months ago I was devastated when I found out I had to do the 6 month diet. I wanted the surgery right then and there. I was discouraged, I went 2 1/2 months being ashamed and eating myself almost 20 lbs heavier. Then with the help of my banded bestie got the motivation to go through with it.

Then I explained how THANKFUL I am now for these 6 months. I wasn't ready back in september. I mean I was ready for the surgery but I wasn't truly ready for banded life. I actually said in my appointment, and I quote "Thank you Blue Cross Blue Shield!" lol I never thought I'd say that because I was sooooo angry with them for so long.

The nurse agreed and said "You are ready now, I can tell"

That meant alot.

But now I'm starting to get random jolts of nervousness as my last appointment approaches. I get little slivers of "can I do this?" and "what are you getting yourself into?"

Thank goodness those nuggets are fleeting and few.

Anyone else out there go through something similar?


FYI-- if you haven't checked out Lap Band Gals blog today she reviewed the new bandwagon cookery cookbook by Jean McMillan and there's an order form to order for a discount. I bought both books today :)